Kana mwana asiri hope...

Sekunge kuti simba rake rekupedzisira, Hanna akanyura pachair, ndokutora pakiti yemahengechepfu muchikwama chake ndokuti:

“Amai vangu vakafa negomarara rechibereko. Ndine zviratidzo zvakafanana. Ndinotya.

Ndakabhedhenura makadhi, ndichitarisira kuti pasinei zvapo nezvaakaratidza, ndaizogona kumufadza zvishoma. Kupararira kweTarot kwaisanganisira, kunyanya, yeAce yeWands, Mwedzi uye VIII yeminondo.

Aiwa, haisi kenza! Une mimba. Ichokwadi kuti mimba iri panjodzi uye inozovhiyiwa, asi mwana anozvarwa ari mutano, ndakadaro ndichinzwa kurerukirwa.

“Asi...handikwanisi kuita vana,” akazevezera.

“Kunyange zvakadaro, muchavatakura. Zvinoreva chinhu chimwe. Mwanakomana, ndakadaro.

Kuti ndive nechokwadi, ndakatora mamwe makadhi matatu kubva panzvimbo. Vakasimbisa zvakawanikwa kare, asi hazvina kukurudzira tariro. Humai hwakanga hwakaoma uye hwakasuwa. Zvakandinetsawo kufunga kuti mukadzi haagone kuverengera mumwe wake.

Ndaifanira kunge ndakaita sei pakadai? Nyeverai Hanna nezvemimba? Akanga atopinda. Kuti azivise kuti munguva pfupi aizofanira kutarisana nerake pachake? Uye ndiani anogona kuvimbisa kuti kufanotaura kwakadaro hakuzokonzeri kukanganisa kwehukama nemurume wake nemwana? ... Saka ndakangosimbisa kuti haafanire kuvimba zvakanyanya nemurume wake, nekuti anogona kumuodza mwoyo zvakanyanya. mune ramangwana - uye ndakafunga kumirira zviitiko. 

handidi mwana

Mwedzi mitanhatu gare gare, Hanna akagara kumashure muhofisi yangu ndokuti, achizunza zvigunwe zvake:

- Mazuva mashoma mushure mekukushanyirai, ndakaona kuti ndaive nechirwere chemimba. Murume wangu aiuya mazuva ose. Akauya nemachira, achipuruzira maoko ake, akamutsvoda. Akavimbisa kuti aifara uye aitonzwa sababa. Asi ndakaramba ndichichema… Sei? Nokuti Toto aifanira kuberekwa, uye handina kumboda kuva amai. Pashure pezvose, havasi vanhu vose vanofanira kubereka. Asi hapana pandaizoudza Adam kuti ndaida kutora mwana wake. Kana kuti kumirira kuti zvisikwa zviitike uye zviparadze. Somuuyo, nokuda kworudo nokuda kwomurume wangu, ndakabvumira ndimene kuporeswa.

Ndava mumwedzi wechinomwe. Ndichiri kunzwa kupanduka. Chimwe chinhu chinoitika ndinopesana nechido changu, uye pasinei nekusawirirana kwakanyanya, ndinofanira kutakura migumisiro yacho. Handikwanisi kuudza munhu kuti zvinhu zvakamira sei. Ndakaedza kutaura nasisi vangu ndichibva ndangodududza kubva mumaziso avo. Kuita sei?

Ndakabva ndati aonane nemurapi aisazoongorora mafungiro emurwere, asi aizomubatsira kutsungirira dambudziko racho. Matambudziko aHana aripo kubva paudiki, izvo zvinokanganisa hupenyu hwevanhu vakuru - uye matambudziko ake nababa vake.

Pope haana kugamuchira Khanka. Aitonhora, ane simba. Airanga chero zvisina maturo. Mukusaziva kwemukadzi, patani yakadhindwa senge: Ini handisi munhu, uye murume wese anotyisidzira kwandiri. Uku kutya kwenguva refu kwakapfuudzwa kune wawakaroorana naye uye zvechokwadi kuchakanganisa mafungiro kune mwanakomana.

Nehurombo, tarot diagnostics zana muzana inopupurirwa. Handizivi kuti sei asina kuona chiremba wepfungwa. Hapana mubvunzo kuti akafunga kuti aigona kuzviita. Asi mushure mokuberekwa kwemwana, haana kuwana rubatsiro.

handigoni kumudaAdhamu haana kunzwisisa dambudziko remudzimai wake. Akadana postpartum depression kugadzirwa kwomukadzi. Akamupomera mhosva yekusazvipira, asi iye pachake akanga asiri kuzoitira amai vechidiki. Uyezve, mwanakomana wangu akanga asingaratidziki sechidhori chinofara, chinonyemwerera. Aivhunduka uye akaridza mhere usiku hwose. Baba vachangobikwa vakashaya shungu. Akasvika pakuti kuita vana hakunakidzi zvachose. Akatanga kutiza kubasa, kusangana nevamwe vaaishanda navo, uye zvinokwanisika kuti munguva pfupi achatiza zvechokwadi.

“Chaizvoizvo, Antek mudiki aneni chete. Uye ndinomunzwira tsitsi nokuti handigoni kumuda. Handikwanisi kuita chimwe chinhu maererano naye,” akachema pakushanya kwakatevera.

Taro akazivisa kurambana. Panguva ino, kuparara kwemhuri kwakatungamirira kuzvinhu zvakanaka. Mukadzikadzi akaoneka muhurongwa, izvo zvaireva kuti Hana aizowana munhu anodziya munzira aizochengeta mukomana.

Izvi zvakaitikawo. Kuti awane imwe mari kana murume wake aenda, Hannah akaroja imba kune mumwe mukadzi ane makore XNUMX okukura aida vana. Vakadzi vakava shamwari. Zvishoma nezvishoma, kutya kwaHana kwakadzikira. Aiziva kuti pedyo paive nemunhu aizobatsira chero nguva.

Maria Bigoshevskaya